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help me..someone just open my eyes just now..he tell me that i should stop smoking... i don't know how but it run on my mind so deeply..maybe because he tell me that u stop smoking to..there is only one thing in my mind that time..ur gf must be the best gf u have..she can really2 change u for the better...that make me really2 sad..i hope i was that girl..i really2 can't say the best of luck for u both because is still love u so much..i really need to get over u..seriously...as i was saying in the last post..i really2 hope to see u in the other side..so i should be good to every one so the i can be in the same places as u are in the other side.. and one other thing why did u stop??...are u so happy with her until u don't want to leave this world without her..as u know..i was cry writing this..it broke my heart..it's i don't want u to stop smoking but i just want to be the one that u stop for...it been more then 7 or 8 month since i saw u..it kills me every nite to think that u a so happy right now..and i was leave with the broken pieces..for your information this is the 3 day i cry for u since the last time i saw u...ok that's that..i ask my bf some stupid question.."if i die early then u,what will u do?"..he answer "i will be sad and after a few year then i get marry again"..that was so fun..i love my bf..but ... actually i was suppose to say to him is "i want to die early so that i can see him"..i know that was so cruel to him...but that the truer..enough of this..the big help sign is for..to all that accidentally click this page and read this..should i stop smoking and be happy in my earth life out and in side???