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hye guys...ellow world...just letting u guys know that i'm in the progress of stop smoking..even though i smoke one cigarette  today..it still a progress..so letting u guys know i smoke 4 or more cigarette per day..so u guys can see it have small effect on me to stop smoking..by this u guys may know that i have chosen to be happy in my life...i should enjoy more of the good stuff..my gold is not buy cigarette..and slowly stop but making it permanent ..so wish me luck...cia yo!!!... 

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help me..someone just open my eyes just now..he tell me that i should stop smoking... i don't know how but it run on my mind so deeply..maybe because he tell me that u stop smoking to..there is only one thing in my mind that time..ur gf must be the best gf u have..she can really2 change u for the better...that make me really2 sad..i hope i was that girl..i really2 can't say the best of luck for u both because is still love u so much..i really need to get over u..seriously...as i was saying in the last post..i really2 hope to see u in the other side..so i should be good to every one so the i can be in the same places as u are in the other side.. and one other thing why did u stop??...are u so happy with her until u don't want to leave this world without her..as u know..i was cry writing this..it broke my heart..it's i don't want u to stop smoking but i just want to be the one that u stop for...it been more then 7 or 8 month since i saw u..it kills me every nite to think that u a so happy right now..and i was leave with the broken pieces..for your information this is the 3 day i cry for u since the last time i saw u...ok that's that..i ask my bf some stupid question.."if i die early then u,what will u do?"..he answer "i will be sad and after a few year then i get marry again"..that was so fun..i love my bf..but ... actually i was suppose to say to him is "i want to die early so that i can see him"..i know that was so cruel to him...but that the truer..enough of this..the big help sign is for..to all that accidentally click this page and read this..should i stop smoking and be happy in my earth life out and in side???

_i'll_see_u_again_

let me explain what is the meaning of this title...
i still trying to understand why did u leave me..but in my mind..it's better for u to leave me..because i can't do anything for u..even if i wish i can...i always say that i can give u every thing..but when i think about it...i really2 can't..i can't even see u wake up in the morning and make u breakfast..i can't even whole ur hand and say that i will never let this hand go..i can't even accompanied u taking the bus..even watch a movie with u..or even having a simple dinner with u..i will always crying when i though about this..scar never heal...just letting u know that i always love u..with my whole heart..even though u leave me not because of this but still..if u didn't leave me..then the time come i will leave u...so i don't want that..it's better now then later..and it better u then me.. but can u promise me something ...plz always remember that i love u and ..be mine when we meet again in the other side... by then i will never let u go...ps i love u...(i hope u read this)

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i wake up early today..because i didn't sleep last nite..i was so busy watch you tube..i have so much fun watching you tube all nite..i don't know how it's work..but it work for me just by seeing people talk..i particularly love to see jlovemc channel...she talk alot and i can see that she is not faking or sacred to show her true self..btw that not what i wanted to talk about...i'm very2 happy today because of the sun today..the morning sun was so beautiful today..it was very rewarding to see the sun put it's color on to the sky..it's like autumn.i love it..call me what ever u want but i'm just me..so enjoy life u guys..don't make ur self down just because a stupid boy that don't know what he had..so be happy..go out there..and laugh as loud as u can..laugh at the mistake that u done expectly to the thing that make u cry..i'm not saying that i already move on but it's help just to smile and laugh...people that can laugh at what did tens to be a happy gold luck person..so laugh...k..

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i was inspired by a Taiwan TV series that so popular..this TV series work by grouped a group of girls that change from a ugly person...i didn't mean the type that is OK to look at... i was saying the type that u guys can categorize as to ugly for the eye to see...then they become to beautiful...they even can become a model of magazine..now for me ..then are no more reason for the girls out there to say that they are ugly...just by putting makeup..u girls are as beautiful as u girls can be..this show can inspired people like me... and increase the level of self esteem...
don't get me wrong.. I'm not against natural beauty but it OK for some of the girls wear makeup to hide they imperfection.. in other word.. it OK to be beautiful and confident.. so get up and feel the fresh air..so here is some of the picture of the girls before putting makeup on and after..

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State the obvious
I didn't get my perfect fantasy
I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy
That's fine; I'll tell mine your gay, and by the way....

I hate that stupid old "GEN 2" you never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're just another picture to burn.

There's no time for tears
I'm just sitting here planning my revenge
There's nothing stopping me
From goin' out with all of your best friends.
And if you come around
Saying sorry to me
My daddy's gonna show you how sorry you'll be

'Cause I hate that stupid old "GEN 2" you never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're just another picture to burn.

And if you're missing me
You better keep it to yourself
Cuz coming back around here
Would be bad for your health

'Cause I hate that stupid old "GEN 2" you never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
In case you haven't heard

I really really hate that stupid old "GEN 2" you never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're just another picture to burn

Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn
you're just another picture to burn
Baby, burn.....

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so hye...this is just to up date what i been through this couple of month... i been a good girl lately maybe some time my mind did think of doing funny stuff but...i try to stop it...some time it stop by it self... well that the good news... the second new is more of the sad part... my best friend/skandel is now official becoming my ex best friend / ex skandel.. i made my mind to let him go..but still i'll be back for my revenge ..so i just want him to know..i'm to happy ...not for u but for me...the song on top is for u..