_jaga_dirimu_

i don't know what i'm feeling right now..it's not love..then what is it???
y y y....y do u have to go..can u feel what i'm feeling right now???..
but it hurt me...i want to say that 3 word..
but i don't think u want to hear that..and i can't say it...bcz of my status right now..
i want to throw all that a way for u..but i'm not sure u can handle my heart..
it hard for me to let u go..but if u just promise me this...jaga dirimu..then i will let u..

_you_my_boyfriend_

Yo..what up??

Or hey darling...

U a so cute..muahx.... 

Really?i'm not lying... 

My2 y should i lie  

You are the one i... 

Been waiting 4 u 4 so long 

Omg!!! 

Y did i say that...embarrassing  

Faith bring us together

Rated high in my life
I love u so much 

Every day is ours 

Never forget about that
Darling you are mine!!!

_i_can't_breathe_

i see your face in my mind as i leave a day..

cause non of us thought it will end this way..

people lie people and sometime they change they mind..

i hope we will never do this..

but i kill me to see you go..

music start playing like the end of a sad movie..

it's the kind of ending that u don't want to see..

cause it a tragedy when u gone..and it only bring me down..

now i don't know what to be without u around..

and we know it's never simple,never easy

there are never clean goodbye..and there no one here to save me..

u are the only one i know like the back of my mind..

and i can't breathe

without u

but i have to..

never wanted this,i never wanted to hurt..

when u gone,i try to swerve every little bump..

nothing i can say to stop u from going..

and i can't breathe

without u

but i have to..

it 2am, it feel like i have lost my best friend..

i hope u know it not easy for me..

and i can't breathe

without u..

_letter_to god_2_

Dear God,

word can describe how I'm great full about the pouring of blessing you give to me..most of the time, i just wanted to shout "thank you o lord!!!" . my faith is so high right now..now i know that you do listen to all my pray...you make my dream come a life again..even though i thought it will not be possible....i don't how to say the very2 much thank you o lord..but i do pray for something..i pray that plz guide me..so i will not loss in the crowd blessing again..
i start to understand that when ever my father scolded me..is the way for you saying "don't get loss"...thank again for that... and i do pray that all my family will see the way i see you..i will try to tell them..and hoping that they will feel the way you make me feel..bless them o lord..make them happy and do help them to carry they burdens o lord..show your road..:) thank again...

for your truly
a girl that's feel your blessing

_if_u_are_wandering_

if u are wandering that how long will is this relationship..
my answer is..i would like it be forever..
if u are wandering ..what if someone don't like..
my answer is..i will tell them to F@#$ off...
if u are wandering..if they are still talking..
my answer is..i will shut she/he out..
if u are wandering..what if it the whole world..
my answer is..then i will stop them all..
if u are wandering..how will u do that?u are just a human...
my answer is..I'm rather be a monster,so that i can be with u
if u are wandering..so they are monster,then if u are a monster 2,then what will they call u..
my answer is..a traitor,I'm find with that..
if u are wandering..so what will u do..
my answer is..I'm just connecting they victim,to make u realize that they a worry..

so i hope u get my point...i love u so much..even though I'm just a human..i will try my very best to stop the whole world from braking us apart..even though i have to turn in a monster to do that..so u do not need to wander any more...

_thnx_god_i'm_happy_

i though i wanted to update u guy about my life...
i can't describe it..
it feel like ..i'm to happy...
i don't know y..but i can feel the energy in me..
even though my dream crush in front of me..
but still i can feel that my heart say..it ok...
i think this is god work..n i'm confident about it..
even though I'm still hiding from my cousins..
but still it ok..
i just wanted u guy to remember that..
god love us..no matter what we have done to our self..
this is from a girl that have do the crazy's thing in the word..
so be confident that god will help us through every thing in this word...
thnx god...i really2 great full ...